04 February 2009
Poem
Just wanted to share a poem that I am thinking of reading as one of my three poems at Barnes and Noble Friday night.
Opinions and comments and suggestions are always more than welcome!!
Prognosis and Prescription
I can't clear my head;
 the thoughts spiral
 and pile atop themselves
 each one more bloated
 than the next, like parasites
 leeching each drop of life
 from the host organism,
 (I contemplate things)
 like a crow wheeling
 in the dusty sky, waiting
 to swoop in for the pickings. 
 I imagine black feathers
 and bloody meat --
 scrawny chicken legs
 and deer haunches
 [oh, the way they stand
 in the road, with their eyes
 transfixed and their nerves
 tensed taut tingling] 
 Trembling 
 as our words do the waltz
 [I think: one, two, three,
 four, turn slightly, box, one...]
 and our bodies sing
 too high-pitched to hear,
 (but can't dolphins listen 
 to the radio shows of the sea
 vibrating on a roiling,
 crashing, foaming frequency
 akin to that of
 our heartbeats?)
 Our nerve endings screech
 like dying cats, or trains
 coming into stations on a curve,
 as though we had melted off
 our skin like candle wax
 and weaved the axons 
 of our ganglia 
 into dreadlocks.
 And my mind spatters its sky 
 with stars (which really 
 burnt-out a long time ago)
 and I can't control this barrage
 of thoughts any more than
 I can stop the spasms 
 in my legs or the numbness
 creeping into my fingernails.
 [Here's a factoid - 
 did you know that when
 the pleasure is too great
 people start to beg
 for pain,
 even if they have 
 to create it themselves?]
 I think of class schedules and
 shopping malls.  Of burials,
 and anonymous graves with
 rotting wood tombstones. 
 Of bluegreen bacteria.
 Of cutlery.  
 I force myself to concentrate
 on the sound of my own breath
 wheezing past tonsils
 [that had been removed
 a long time ago.]
 If I stop thinking,
 I run risks. I might black out 
 pass out drop out and
 fail to wake up...
 [Is death when the heart 
 stops pumping blood,
 or is death the cessation
 of consciousness?]  
---Hopefully tomorrow will bring a better update!! Peace & Love
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